8 Months

I was thinking I have not kept a memory book of Ella, but have used this blog to keep up with her milestones. I thought since she is turning 8-months this week it would be neat to write about all of the things she has been doing and how she has changed me. I know kind of mushy.

I was sitting on the bed with Ella this past Sun. for at least an hour playing with her and thinking to myself how much she has changed since she was born. Of course there are the obvious things like weight, talking, eating food, and my all time favorite sleeping through the night, but what I thought most about is how much she has developed her own personality. Each facial expression means something different and the funny thing is I can read most of them. The way she reaches for me and when I pick her up, her entire face lights up and it is like nothing else in the world matters to her, but me. I watched her try to reach for a toy and get mad, but then keep trying until she got it. I wanted to just give her the toy but knew she needed to learn to get it for herself. I know I am always going to want to make it all better, but part of her becoming who she is, is that I take a step back and allow her to fall, just as mom did for me. I believe this makes a strong and independent woman. I love how when I rub her little checks softly she buries her head under my arm and snuggles just as close as she can. She is completely calm and secure. Each day when I drop her off at day-care and sit her down to play, while she is so excited to play with the kids she is always keeping an eye on me to make sure I am there, as she knows I will soon leave. I think this is probably what I will do as she gets older is keep that one eye always on her knowing she will grow up. Her giggles are the best thing in the world to me. She can laugh so loud and I can just look at her and smile and she starts to giggle. Of course I knew I would always love my child, but who knew it would create a love that was unknown to me . Ella has truly made me a better person. There are those days when all I want to do is crawl back in bed and wish the day was ending instead of starting, but the moment I see Ella all of that disappears. I am truly blessed to have such a unique loving child. While life for us right now is a complete roller coaster never slowing down for even a minute these are also some of the most precious times that I will always treasure.